Indecision

Still don't know if I want to do NaNo. I mean, I have three or four different possibilities, but I don't have that kind of settled, planning feeling I like to have when I start the month. But this would give me the push to do the vaudeville-singer-and-comedic-magician-who-is-an-actual-magician-have-adventures story that I did two pages of for my first NaNo attempt in 2005.

Part of me just wants to go, "fuck it, let's make it up as we go along," like I did the time I wrote a Regency fantasy story ... but it was so terrible, I didn't really like it afterward. I didn't have any emotional connection to it.

Why did I do that

Okay, so I wrote down a bare-bones outline of the story, what the conflict is, what the characters look like and their basic backgrounds. NaNo, NaNo, you flighty temptress. I know I shouldn't and yet I still do.