dilemmas and so on

Brookside is interested! I hope this goes through. But I can't meet them until the week after next, plus I haven't set up my appts with the other museums for patterning yet, so there's a good excuse reason for not getting with Manpower again yet.

I'm going to have to figure out where to go next, though. That's the trouble with this sort of career path. I'm thinking about Peebles Island, because my guess from the records I've seen there is that they could use me - and they don't have an internet presence as far as I know. That's a big place, too, so it could take longer.

But of course the more of this that I try to do, the more I box myself in. Really, though, the choice isn't "box myself in" or "branch myself out", it's "box myself in" or "be a mail clerk". But ... IDK.

it sucks

The worst thing about being unemployed is that I'll be going to sleep and suddenly I'm thinking about death and oblivion, and I'm hyperventilating and my heart feels like it's going to strangle me, and if really like to just go to sleep but I can't because I'm too freaked out