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Work last night was awful. First of all, having to wash my hands every time I blew my nose took up a BUNCH of time so I didn't get to do everything I meant to get to. Then I had a massive (like almost to the point of nausea) headache from my sinuses combined with my sleep debt - I'd had three nights on cold medicine where for some reason I woke up every few hours, I don't understand it because normally nighttime cold medicine knocks me right out. And I found out about not getting the Drexel job when I was on my dinner break.

( there are some definite grammatical issues in this and I'm not fixing them )

Probably more to come later. I didn't sleep well last night either and I just feel drained, although I did just get a very encouraging email from Batsford. This is an awful decision that I always worried about having to make but always thought something would work out before it happened ... but this year it's been repeatedly brought home to me that my perseverance and talents and experience are just not enough, even when I have personal connections. I'm not going to find a job I'm more suited for than this one, and if it's paid experience that's the issue that's literally never going to improve because I can't get more experience without a job. The sunk-cost fallacy is a fallacy, and it's time to admit that I've sunk way too much into this.