lo! it begins
Jun. 18th, 2013 06:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chocolatepotI am going to feel awful all the way from this morning to Saturday about this lecture. Really. It's constant and always there in my mind. It's so stupid, whenever I do public speaking the extended ramp-up to it - sometimes hours, sometimes days - is excruciating, to the point where my brain starts scrambling for completely idiotic reasons to call off (or hoping against hope that we will suddenly be out of time and mine will get shunted to next class, even though THAT SOLVES NOTHING) ... yet I know the whole time that thirty seconds into it I'll be fine.
Whoa. Anastasia Romanov was more than twice as big as baby-me when she was born.
Feeling very fragile again. I don't know if - well, I do know, it's the Impending Doom along with the house-selling doom, the moving-out doom, and the lack of sympathy at home. So yeah. Also, this TED Talk I saw recommended for anxious/depressed people and it's talking about deathbeds and regrets and it's not helping my depression/anxiety.
Whoa. Anastasia Romanov was more than twice as big as baby-me when she was born.
Feeling very fragile again. I don't know if - well, I do know, it's the Impending Doom along with the house-selling doom, the moving-out doom, and the lack of sympathy at home. So yeah. Also, this TED Talk I saw recommended for anxious/depressed people and it's talking about deathbeds and regrets and it's not helping my depression/anxiety.
