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Mar. 23rd, 2015 08:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chocolatepotAnother big day. My yogurt didn't set overnight so I tried to reheat it again this morning, only for it to become ricotta. So I've tried again, this time with my usual last-bit-of-last-batch culture instead of the dried one I was giving a shot. Unfortunately the last batch is a bit ... almost spoiled, maybe? Hopefully not. And this time I also wrapped my nice thick hoodie around it because either the oven or the pot (probably the pot) is not sufficient to keep it warm, even with a dishtowel or two.
To justify watching more Royal Pains - it's such a blah show, why is it enjoyable background noise? - I sorted through my makeup box, which contains makeup I don't really use, to evaluate how much was spoiled (lipstick), or a color that doesn't suit me because Mom gave it to me and our complexions aren't related at all (lipstick and blush), or terrible (eyeliners and eyeshadow sticks that are totally broken inside or don't really write because they're crappy); then I put the makeup I do use into the box, so it's easier to get at in the morning. And I finished that hem, then tried on a full outfit for tomorrow.
It's very funny to me, the change I've made in the past two weeks. (It remains to be seen how long it will last, but I have high hopes.) I've worn a nice outfit with a skirt every day to work, and done some amount of makeup - usually pretty minimal due to my skills, my desires, and my knowledge that hooded eyes will make any eyeshadow delicacy run together eventually. Of course, there's nothing inherently great about this, but this is what I've wanted to be/do for a long time. It just hasn't been possible previously because of a lack of funds and a lack of ability (to wear the skirts to work) and a lack of real desire. Like, I wanted to be the kind of person who had a cool retro-inspired wardrobe and wore makeup because putting on makeup was fun, but I just didn't feel like I could be that person at that time, going all the way back to grad school. Actually, today I realized that maybe a big part of the reason everyone else seemed so much more put-together than me at FIT was because they were older and more secure in their appearances. This seems really obvious to me now, and tbh even the people very close to my age were more put-together, but there have always been areas where I take much longer to mature than others. Anyway, I can do a catseye and these methods of haircare are working for me and I'm just very happy with the way things are turning out. Since getting here I've just felt so much better - it's a couple of days before my period is due and I'm not feeling any PMS at all, none.
To justify watching more Royal Pains - it's such a blah show, why is it enjoyable background noise? - I sorted through my makeup box, which contains makeup I don't really use, to evaluate how much was spoiled (lipstick), or a color that doesn't suit me because Mom gave it to me and our complexions aren't related at all (lipstick and blush), or terrible (eyeliners and eyeshadow sticks that are totally broken inside or don't really write because they're crappy); then I put the makeup I do use into the box, so it's easier to get at in the morning. And I finished that hem, then tried on a full outfit for tomorrow.
It's very funny to me, the change I've made in the past two weeks. (It remains to be seen how long it will last, but I have high hopes.) I've worn a nice outfit with a skirt every day to work, and done some amount of makeup - usually pretty minimal due to my skills, my desires, and my knowledge that hooded eyes will make any eyeshadow delicacy run together eventually. Of course, there's nothing inherently great about this, but this is what I've wanted to be/do for a long time. It just hasn't been possible previously because of a lack of funds and a lack of ability (to wear the skirts to work) and a lack of real desire. Like, I wanted to be the kind of person who had a cool retro-inspired wardrobe and wore makeup because putting on makeup was fun, but I just didn't feel like I could be that person at that time, going all the way back to grad school. Actually, today I realized that maybe a big part of the reason everyone else seemed so much more put-together than me at FIT was because they were older and more secure in their appearances. This seems really obvious to me now, and tbh even the people very close to my age were more put-together, but there have always been areas where I take much longer to mature than others. Anyway, I can do a catseye and these methods of haircare are working for me and I'm just very happy with the way things are turning out. Since getting here I've just felt so much better - it's a couple of days before my period is due and I'm not feeling any PMS at all, none.
