Since Mother Eve in the Garden long ago

For the most part I think the immediate feels are coming from the fact that I had a full workday + evening activities on Friday and Saturday (work event and dance practice) and then today (rehearsal) and will be having it tomorrow as well (concert), and my feet hurt a lot but every year I've felt more and more befuddled and alienated about Christmastime.

( I'm not sure how much this makes sense )