It's just a break

So I talked to Jillian today, and suggested that I stay home for a couple of weeks until the exhibition closes and they can bring back the stuff from the storage facility. Because otherwise they're going to spend the rest of the grant money on me not doing what the grant's for, just make-work. I'd rather leave them with a finished project.

Dad of course now encourages me to get a seasonal job. I don't know. I'm willing to give it a go on Monday but again of course he wants me to spend my weekend working on it. :I So I'm filling out another Best Buy app right now. It is shit, as all online applications are. I have finally run out of fucks to give (sorry for all the swearing, it's one of those days) and answered the personality questions in full-on lie mode, Strongly Agree, Strongly Disagree, whatever makes me sound like a mindless team player. Tomorrow I'll do Target and Kohls. It's an exercise in futility, but at least if I can say I've been applying for jobs it means I'm trying.

Cut out and started sewing 1840s chemise. It feels awesome. There is really nothing like taking your own pattern and then making it up (or finding that you have exactly the amount of fabric you need in your stash). I'm plumbing the depths of my nerdery, but it really does feel excellent. Someday I'm going to make the satin anglaise from Cooperstown and it'll be so fab.

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cut the sleeves too small

why

I can stay up as late as I want

Cut sleeves out again, much bigger, so I can gather them. And this time I pulled threads as stitch guides - technically this is something you do for small children who are just learning, but I dun care. It makes your stitches a lot smaller, too.

It's interesting, rewatching S1 of OUAT. There are some things I'm impatient to sit through again, but there's a lot that only has meaning now that I'd forgotten about. Also I really want Graham to come back in some way. If only in someone pointing out that Regina magically coerced him into a sexual relationship and murdered him because he was interested in Emma, since that's basically the one thing stopping me from really being in her camp. I do want to see her (eventually) redeemed, I just can't get past it, esp. since it's never addressed.