So allergic this evening
May. 2nd, 2013 06:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chocolatepotSo allergic SO ALLERGIC SO ALLERGIC
Having some frustrated thoughts about where I am in life, etc. etc. Also getting a bit frustrated regarding Dress U: I don't really feel like I want to go that much anymore, but I registered to teach, but my stuff isn't on the site yet so maybe I'm not actually registered to teach, but I have a rooming commitment. I don't quite want to go because it seems even more focused on costuming skills this year - the trouble is that the CSA symposium is too academic/cultural studies for my taste and I never seem interested in more than a couple of papers there, plus it costs more, so it's not really a good alternative for me. But I'm only interested in a couple of Dress U classes I'm interested in. Being sick isn't the best time for making decisions, but I'm starting to feel like it's not worth it. (It being ten hours in the car and the social expense.)
I don't even have any of the things I meant to make for it done, and since that's like the whole point ... I just.
Just read a Jezebel article on Millennials that I thought would point out the flaws in the way we're perceived, but no, it was just "haha, yeah, we suck compared to previous generations, don't we?" I think what frustrates me the most is that nearly every bit of media and motivational whatsits taught us that it was the most important thing to follow your heart, not just do what your parents tell you will give you a lucrative career, because even if you only end up doing okay it's better to do okay and be happy than to pour your life into an awful job, but now everyone's all, "you dumbasses, why didn't you all go to school for engineering?" Never mind that back when I was in high school it was lawyering and doctoring that were supposed to be the perfect way to money, and now there are too many people with law/medical degrees that can't get jobs or pay their massive student loans. Never mind that there are plenty of people who would be shitty engineers.
Not to mention the fact that most of us are aware by now that it's not "work hard and be rich vs. kick back and be poor", it's "strive for your goals and don't make much money vs. work really hard and don't make much money".
Bah. I think what has me so frustrated (to use that word for the dozenth time) is that I can't afford to do the research I need for my publishing dreams - okay, and to buy the things I sometimes just want - without a job, but whenever I have a job I inevitably have no energy left for working on this, and I don't feel I can request days off for the necessary work-week research visits. Though I'm not sure if this latter issue is because I have a decent sense of what is appropriate or just because I believe I'm only likeable as long as I'm useful, so if I become less productive everyone will dislike me.
Also, my nose is chapped.
Having some frustrated thoughts about where I am in life, etc. etc. Also getting a bit frustrated regarding Dress U: I don't really feel like I want to go that much anymore, but I registered to teach, but my stuff isn't on the site yet so maybe I'm not actually registered to teach, but I have a rooming commitment. I don't quite want to go because it seems even more focused on costuming skills this year - the trouble is that the CSA symposium is too academic/cultural studies for my taste and I never seem interested in more than a couple of papers there, plus it costs more, so it's not really a good alternative for me. But I'm only interested in a couple of Dress U classes I'm interested in. Being sick isn't the best time for making decisions, but I'm starting to feel like it's not worth it. (It being ten hours in the car and the social expense.)
I don't even have any of the things I meant to make for it done, and since that's like the whole point ... I just.
Just read a Jezebel article on Millennials that I thought would point out the flaws in the way we're perceived, but no, it was just "haha, yeah, we suck compared to previous generations, don't we?" I think what frustrates me the most is that nearly every bit of media and motivational whatsits taught us that it was the most important thing to follow your heart, not just do what your parents tell you will give you a lucrative career, because even if you only end up doing okay it's better to do okay and be happy than to pour your life into an awful job, but now everyone's all, "you dumbasses, why didn't you all go to school for engineering?" Never mind that back when I was in high school it was lawyering and doctoring that were supposed to be the perfect way to money, and now there are too many people with law/medical degrees that can't get jobs or pay their massive student loans. Never mind that there are plenty of people who would be shitty engineers.
Not to mention the fact that most of us are aware by now that it's not "work hard and be rich vs. kick back and be poor", it's "strive for your goals and don't make much money vs. work really hard and don't make much money".
Bah. I think what has me so frustrated (to use that word for the dozenth time) is that I can't afford to do the research I need for my publishing dreams - okay, and to buy the things I sometimes just want - without a job, but whenever I have a job I inevitably have no energy left for working on this, and I don't feel I can request days off for the necessary work-week research visits. Though I'm not sure if this latter issue is because I have a decent sense of what is appropriate or just because I believe I'm only likeable as long as I'm useful, so if I become less productive everyone will dislike me.
Also, my nose is chapped.
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Date: 2013-05-03 03:30 am (UTC)Jezebel prints some weird stuff sometimes. Stuff that's plain nasty and that I think they just print for pagehits and controversy.