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Jul. 20th, 2016 08:08 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chocolatepotI found a bonnet! I emailed Timely Tresses to see if she had any forms already made, and she has an early 1860s model in natural straw (among others in different colors), so I've asked for it and she's sending me a PayPal invoice. Very very happy, this is going to be a much nicer hat than my brown silk one. Now to get ribbons. Oh, and netting to line the brim - or maybe I'll just pink some voile or lawn instead, I already have a lot of that and I'm pretty sure that's acceptable?.
Civil War Weekend is giving me the worst anxiety for no reason. Everything is set, all we need are volunteers to do admission and run the gift shop. But I'm all et up inside anyway. Also, I had a message on the voicemail about someone wanting to volunteer, and first it was awkward because I'd misheard the name as "Angela" and it was "Andrew", and then Sue heard the name and came over and wrote that he's visually impaired on a pad, and after I'd booked him in to do admissions on Sunday morning with his assistant she told me he also has some emotional issues and basically I'm just hoping this all works out okay.
It feels like every day I'm getting more annoyed with JM - and it's probably in part because I've started venting about her from time to time, and the more you vent the more you notice, so ... but it's like she's missing certain aspects of socialization that just seem fundamental to me? Yesterday I was telling her about how I'm anxious over the reenactment, because while stuff is pretty much all arranged by this point there's always the potential for DRAMA because reenacting (like most hobbies) brings the DRAMA, and the commander of the unit that's become a co-host tends to rub the leaders of the other hosting unit the wrong way. Her response was to say that reenactors and Scadians are emotionally immature, because she once went to an SCA wedding and the groom had a meltdown in his tent. She knows I do this - and didn't really walk it back even after I got excited and asked for the contact info for the local SCA branch - but it's like there's no "gee, maybe I shouldn't say that, I would hate to insult the person I'm talking to" center in her brain, no connection that maybe I would take it badly. Similar thing has happened in other situations - where I would pad or hold back my true opinions because I don't want to hurt a conversational partner's feelings by implying that they're stupid for liking a thing, it's like this concept doesn't even occur to her. I'm not offended and my feelings aren't hurt because I silently judge her for enough things that I don't feel any need for her approval, it's just mind-boggling to me that someone could be without this particular bit of programming.
Civil War Weekend is giving me the worst anxiety for no reason. Everything is set, all we need are volunteers to do admission and run the gift shop. But I'm all et up inside anyway. Also, I had a message on the voicemail about someone wanting to volunteer, and first it was awkward because I'd misheard the name as "Angela" and it was "Andrew", and then Sue heard the name and came over and wrote that he's visually impaired on a pad, and after I'd booked him in to do admissions on Sunday morning with his assistant she told me he also has some emotional issues and basically I'm just hoping this all works out okay.
It feels like every day I'm getting more annoyed with JM - and it's probably in part because I've started venting about her from time to time, and the more you vent the more you notice, so ... but it's like she's missing certain aspects of socialization that just seem fundamental to me? Yesterday I was telling her about how I'm anxious over the reenactment, because while stuff is pretty much all arranged by this point there's always the potential for DRAMA because reenacting (like most hobbies) brings the DRAMA, and the commander of the unit that's become a co-host tends to rub the leaders of the other hosting unit the wrong way. Her response was to say that reenactors and Scadians are emotionally immature, because she once went to an SCA wedding and the groom had a meltdown in his tent. She knows I do this - and didn't really walk it back even after I got excited and asked for the contact info for the local SCA branch - but it's like there's no "gee, maybe I shouldn't say that, I would hate to insult the person I'm talking to" center in her brain, no connection that maybe I would take it badly. Similar thing has happened in other situations - where I would pad or hold back my true opinions because I don't want to hurt a conversational partner's feelings by implying that they're stupid for liking a thing, it's like this concept doesn't even occur to her. I'm not offended and my feelings aren't hurt because I silently judge her for enough things that I don't feel any need for her approval, it's just mind-boggling to me that someone could be without this particular bit of programming.
